Be imitators of God as dearly loved children
and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as
a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
-Ephesians 5:1-2
One Tuesday morning, I read on my phone screen
“Homework… write an essay describing how has God been dealing with your
character since you have live on the vision (G12)”, automatic I shut down. I run out of words then later I realized maybe
I don’t know how or where to start because everything happened so fast.
How to picture it?
More likely in a normal day I’m walking, thinking… then I heard a familiar sound
at my back, fast approaching and then I saw people running, overtaking. So I
stop on pacing… I turned around sabay
tingala… immediately heavy rain pours! At
masakit sa mukha ha! Because I’m wet I don’t find the need to run and while
it takes more time, even I’m shaking I’m enjoying the shower.
See I don’t have
the umbrella... I’m really not prepared on the vision (G12) but somehow and
some way I know I’m welcome… that I’m one of these raindrops.
God moves
mysteriously. I hear- feel Him but most of the time He’s silent. He’s unpredictable,
that up until now I’m learning- reading everything in the hard way. To state
the few… one, knowing I can’t He pushes me; He still wants me to do these
particulars. Two, He’s teaching me to embrace the new Claire and respect the
old me which I still find so difficult. Three, I’m doing the things I’m not use
to and I hate to do.
Behind all these, I
see and experience God’s sincerity day after day which made me think… embracing
the vision is like feeling affection for someone. Therefore He wants a relationship,
with Him and with others, to be real. So he took the risk of creating me (us)
free. And I know Adam and Eve was the first to experience this. He wants me to
grow... to practice my free will- decision. That alone drives me to trust, stay
and continue. By that, God win my heart.
